My heart cried in anguished as I felt this pain and sadness in my heart, my mind had so much questions and thoughts. Then it dawned on me of You my very partner the one whom I share this very one life with, " how do You get through all this?" I cried in pain was because of the relationship we build and shared but You? I ask, "How do You go through this pain as You see the one that You have shaped and formed, one that carries Your image and breathes Your very life making such decisions?"
It was at that very moment, You reminded me that You are the GOD who KNOWS,You don't think but YOU KNOW! You know the choice which we will make and how far we will go. It's through Your Sovereign foreknowledge, You leave room for our margins of error because all error cannot derail Your ultimate plan. You will get what You want, even if we move in negative and positive, You have it covered already. Despite all resistance, we will still go forward! All because You know!! You are the GOD who WILLS. You predetermine what You have had as a foreknowledge. You are determined by Your will to carry it through thus You sets the course for those whom You have chosen.
That is why, I know and know that Your ultimate plan and purpose would still be moving forward. But it's here that I learned to know Your very heart. Many times, when such things happens, we loose heart and just carry the pain and anguish of loosing people and stop there. Then we say You feel such pain and anguish as though we really understand You. Yes! You do feel the pain and anguish it's because You see us walking out from Your very good plan that You have for all Your partners but You don't stop just there at the pain and anguish and being helpless but You have already seen the ending from the beginning. You have seen the future and that's why whatever decision we make, You already know and have it covered. You are a master strategist.
It's here I begin to realize that no matter what You determine by Your will to carry through the plans that's for Your church and nation. You see the future and You are determined to outwork the process. Nothing can stop Your plan and purpose! That's why I must not just stop here at this pain and anguish but keep moving forward and sow my life as seed for this nation because I'm here for a higher purpose as I'm representing You. I must not be like Terah, who stopped moving forward and settled down because of the pain of loosing his son, Haran whom he loved. I must see a bigger picture! I must see Your purpose and the very hope for this nation! This being said, I know when there are issues that need to be resolved or rectify, I still need to but when my conscience sets me free of the issue then I must learn to move on.
When You called Abram,You want him to to go the LAND which You will show him. You said to him, "I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all PEOPLES on EARTH will be blessed through you."
Terah stopped and he died but when You called Abram, You want him to go to the land which You will show him. Why the land? It's in a land whereby You can release Your very dominion. It's through a person who represents You in the land, whereby Your very government can be established. As to rule it means to bring in government and to gather till all that You want is in place according to Your liking then YOU reign! The people in the land is blessed because they have hope and now know what's Your heart and ways because a kingly generation is leading them.
Terah he settled and operated within only (internal) but with Abram, You brought him out. There's a change of domain. Our internal dynamics must be well connected within so that we can PUSH OUT if not it becomes very inward looking and loose sight of destiny. The church must move out from the operational base to outside if it's to take on city transformation.
Now I know why, this song was running in my heart and spirit despite all this issue that happen.Yes! This is Your cry and it's my cry as I share this very ONE LIFE with YOU. I'm here to partner with You to rebuild our desolate city so that I can rule and reign with You here on this earth! This is what we are here for!! I must not forget this and that's why I must move on forward!
Our cry for Malaysia - Destiny Heights
Honestly! I really feel very shallow in knowing You as my partner and in my writings coz I can only draw parallels in my expressions of You on human level. Argghhhh...I really feel I don't do justice coz You're of the highest honor and glory! But thank you, I'm very grateful that You chose to partner with me and You see me fit enough to share this very heart of Yours!
